Restore to me the joy of our salvation and sustain me with a willing spirit. Psalm 51:12
Today is a struggle for me. I'm realizing how pain wears me down. It has been so long since I have had a truly pain-free day, that I don't really remember how it feels. I'm sorta used to the usual stuff - but today ... ah, today is a challenge.
I struggle to read my Bible.
I struggle with my prayer time.
I'm struggling with writing.
This is the second post I've written. The first crashed before publishing and my back up didn't work.
I just wanted to say forget it.
Then I remembered the verse I'm writing about.
"Sustain in me a willing spirit."
That has to come from God.
On my own, I'd have given up long ago.
I guess there are times when I think that what would bring joy into my life is a pain-free day. Yet, I know that is not true.
David knew it, too. Where does our joy come from? True joy?
It's found in salvation.
It's found in the fact that God loves us.
I used to tell my kids that God doesn't make junk.
I need to remember that on days like today.
If God sees value in me, I need to do so as well. And I need to remember the true source of my joy is Him - not in circumstances.
Would I rather be pain-free? I'm pretty sure that is what I'd choose. Yet, this is the place in which I need call on God to sustain me - and to grant me a willing spirit.
Willing to continue to struggle when I'd rather give up.
Willing to type a post for Him at least one more time.
Dear reader, if you are struggling today like I am, I encourage you to consider the source of true joy in your life. You have Him. And you have Him to sustain you. And sustain you He will.
Father God, Thank you for loving us. Thank you for being there, no matter what. And Lord - restore to us the joy of our salvation - and sustain a willing spirit in each of us. Amen and amen.
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