Answer me quickly, Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life. Rescue me from my enemies, Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. For your name’s sake, Lord, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. In your unfailing love, silence my enemies; destroy all my foes, for I am your servant. Psalm 143: 7-12
This is one of the rare days when words don't come. I type ... something ... anything ... to fulfill my commitment to this blog. Nothing seems right. I've not even the energy to find an old post.
"Less that Perfect" has turned into more of a challenge. Heart issues are compounded by dental issues (losing two crowns and an attached bridge) meaning a trip into Chicago which is an hour or so away, a slight fever and abdominal pain which necessitates a doctor's visit, and a huge lethargy descending on me.
Life with chronic illness.
We don't know what to expect do we?
And, more often than not, as our illnesses and challenges progress, the unexpected almost becomes the expected.
Days like today frustrate me. I want to write a good post. I want to live this day as best I can. Today, that "best I can" isn't really very good.
More than ever I identify with David. I look at the Scripture I was going to write about. I read David's words. I find myself praying them.
Answer me quickly.
Do not hide your face from me.
Show me the way I should go.
Preserve my life.
Bring me out of trouble.
Silence my enemies.
Destroy my foes.
That is when Scripture is most alive for me. When I read the words and they become my prayer - not simply words in a book I feel obligated to read. I realize how alive those words are.
I read the passage again and simply nod my head in agreement. "Yes, Lord. Yes."
All of those things. I need all of those things in my life today.
I need God.
I hear folks say that they don't know how folks get through this life of chronic illness without God.
All I can say is that I don't know either.
I don't know how God will answer that prayer. But I do know He will. I pray for than confidence for His answered prayer for all of the above for each of you. I don't know when. I don't know where. I don't know how. But I do know that He will answer. Why? David answers that clearly ...
For you are my God
and I am your servant.
In His love, dear readers, in His love,
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